My new obsession...with words...yes words

So I've had this odd obsession with words that started last night. I have no idea why this new obsession is with words. It just IS! Knowing me, this obsession is probobly going to only last for something like a week or two, then I'll move on to some new obsession.

So here are some of the words that, for some odd reason, I LOVE!

• Abandond
• Deserted
• Desolate
• Destitute
• desperate
• empty
• vacant
• negected
• lonely
• forsaken
• solitary
• shunned
• forlorn
• outcast
• rejected
• helpless
• unfortunate
• doomed
• abdicate
• relinquis
• truency
• vacancy
• deficancy
• Forge
• headway
• declaired
• intese
• burning
• cherish
• tresured
• ungodly
• unimaginable
• taboo
• overpowering
• uncommon
• exceptional
• unfamiliar
• exotic
• noteworthy
• unparelled
• harmony
• tender

I'm actually kind of hopeing this obsession lasts since it could come in handy with the things I've been writing latley.

I'm downstairs in the commons (at Delta) right now, and there are these three really loud girls sitting near me. Their being quite obnoxious...I'd really like to just go over to them and have them turn the music down, if not off, and get them to quiet down so I can actually hear myself think. Well, I only have about an hour before class, so I guess I'll put up with it.

I've got an interview at Sears tomarrow morning (10AM). I'll try to update this blog on Tuesday with how the interview goes, and if I got a job.

The next video is of Julie Reiber and Megan Hilty in Wicked doing "No Good Deed". One of Julies riffs part way through the song is AMAZING! The third video is of Marcie Dodd and Megan Hilty in Wicked. Marcie's hat is on sideways if you didn't realize, and her cackle is amazing. The fourth video is Julie Reiber and Megan Hilty from Wicked singing "For Good". At 5:12 you can see the tears running down Julie's face, you can also hear the tears in her voice several times. The fifth video is Megan Hilty and Marcie Dodd singing "For Good". I think this one is Megan's final for good before leaving Wicked LA to do previews of 9 to 5 in LA. She's currently back in LA closing the Wicked cast as Glinda before heading to New York to open 9 to 5 there. The sixth video is Marcie Dodd and Megan Hilty preforming "One Short Day" from Wicked. Notice the quick change they make and that they come onto the stage late. You can also see the mich on Marcie's hat. The seventh video is Marcie Dodd singing No Good Deed...i really like this one for some reason.

Contact...yes the movie

Because I can't. I... had an experience... I can't prove it, I can't even explain it, but everything that I know as a human being, everything that I am tells me that it was real! I was given something wonderful, something that changed me forever... A vision... of the universe, that tells us, undeniably, how tiny, and insignificant and how... rare, and precious we all are! A vision that tells us that we belong to something that is greater then ourselves, that we are *not*, that none of us are alone! I wish... I... could share that... I wish, that everyone, if only for one... moment, could feel... that awe, and humility, and hope. But... That continues to be my wish. Contact

Go check out http://www.thatgirliknew.blogspot.com/ for a post about California's prop 8, and a conversation I had with my dad about it.

Im a maniac...

Yeah I'm a maniac. I've got about an hour before class...and what am I doing? I'm blogging and talking with a friend on facebook. Funny how these things happen. I could swear that today has gone way to quickley. My class starts in just under and hour...and I'm not feeling like going to class at all.

So I was thinking about how many blogs I've written since I started this blog about 11 months ago. Only 11 months later, and I've posted a little over 100 blogs. I was looking back at my earliest blogs just now, and realized just how much I've changed. Between the time I first started this blog, and now, I've decided on a major (pharmacy tech), am almost done with school for at least a little while, am more ready than ever to move out of my parents house, and SO much more comfortable with myself. I have to say that since January of this year, I've come out to almost everyone I know as gay, and have become much more comfortable with myself.

This past summer I worked for the loons in Food Service. What an experience! The first few games I worked serving up sausages, and would go home smelling of them. Later in the season, I was moved over to the hand dipped ice cream, where I scouped the ice cream. By the end of the season, my right arm was much strong than the left arm because of all the scouping of hard ice cream I had done!

Weird how much changes in just a few months. I've got to get going so I can get to the F wing for class at six. I might post anouther blog on Tuesday, but I know if I will yet or not. Maybe I'll continue to look back on what I've been up to since I started this blog up and before.

A friend's not a cheap little phony creep
Or a jerk trying to make a deal
A friend is a person who, most of all,
Cares about what you feel;
And nothing is harder
Than learning a friend isn't real

A friend sends notes back and forth all day
And doesn't care that you can't spell
A friend knows you've got a crush on your teacher,
But a friend would never tell
A friend's outside waiting
The minute you both hear the bell

And if your heart is always breaking
Cause the world is just not fair
When you're at your worst
Your friend's the first one there
Giving you something to lean on
And that's what it means to be a friend

A friend won't smoke when she's in your room
Or laugh at the poems you write
A friend won't go start kissing your brother
The minute that you're out of sight
A friend is the person
You call sixteen times every night

And if your heart is always breaking
And you want to run and hide
When your hope is gone
Your friend is on your side

If someone moves in around the corner
And you want to show him you care
So you give him all your last month of vacation
And all of the time you can spare
But then, on the first day of classes
He acts like you're not even there,
Then he doesn't know
He doesn't know!
He'll never know what it means
To be a friend
From the broadway musical 13


I love these lyrics!

California's prop 8

I was watching the election results on Tuesday night/Wensday morning, and saw what happened with California's prop 8. I thought about it , and decided I wanted to find out what other people think about the whole gay marriage thing. Basically I want as many people to e-mail me their thoughts about what happened to California's prop 8, and gay marriage to me at MNNVmidland@yahoo.com

I'll then combine everyone's thought into a blog on here for everyone to see what everyone else throughout the world. If I get enough responses from throughout the US and the world, I'll be able to come up with a graphic showing how many people are for or against gay marriage in different areas.

So e-mail me at MNNVmidland@yahoo.com with your thoughts!

100th post

It's my 100th post here...this post probobly will be short considering I have to head of to class shortly (even though I really dont want to go!).

It's been kind of a long day between getting to school, studying for class, voting in the election, and trying to catch up on e-mails and other internet related things. I have been way to busy latley. I can't wait for thanksgiving when things will calm down, even if its only for three or four days.

Last night I had a bell choir rehersal. It was one of many rehersals between September and December. The weird thing about last night was that I finally realized just how close I've gotten to the other people that I play with. After the rehersal was done our director, Diane, had myself and a couple of other people stay after the rehersal. That was when I realized something...Diane said something about how when i moved during the rehersals from E and F four to Bflat and C 6 and 7, she expected me to ring the Bflat and C like I ring the fours (ring them so hard the Bflat and C would make our eardrums burst), but was amazed that I didn't. I hadn't really thought about how big of a change that is until Diane mentioned it. Becky (one of the other people I play with in the bell choir) also said something to me that kind of amazed me. She said something to the extent of that I wasn't just one of the youngest in the choir and hadnt been playing as long as some other people had, but also am at the same level as someone else in the choir. I can't wait for the thanksgiving eve service at my church--we're doing a mass bell choir with two or three bell choirs from the area which will sound amazing!