Bummed out

Yes Im in a little bit of a rut right now. My friends and I have been trying to plan a weekend at one of our friends cottages on a local lake this summer for all of us to hang out. Today I heard the date that had been decided on, and it turns out that two of us (one being me) cant make it for one reason or anouther. It kinda sucks. Last summer we did one of these, but I was the only one who couldnt make it. Yeah...so im really bummed out right now. I know they arent trying to leave me out, but it sucks when you seem to be the only one who cant ever make it to the summer get together.

I guess part of the reason im so bummed is that going to a local community college that everyone commutes too makes it hard to make new friends. That and seeing most of your closest friends go away to college has made me wounder who i am, and who i was meant to be. In the past year or so I started realizing that I can write. My dad has said that i cant count on ever being published. I havent given up on that chance yet though. There are people I know who have read the screenplay Ive written and loved it. The stories and screenplays I have written and am writing seem to be the only things I've got right now too hold on to. They're the only things I've found that wont disapear.