Oh the chaos!

Yes my life has been chaotic the past few weeks. I've been trying to update two blogs, going to class for six hours a week, doing my homework, studying for quizes, going to a bell choir rehersal, watching the season premiere of Greys Anatomy, watching part of the presidential debate, trying to keep up with the news, writing a screenplay, and babysitting. As if that's not enough I've had something spectaculare happen. I fell in love. I'm not even joking. Before I address this whole falling in love thing, I need to address anouther issue that I think I need to adress here.

I met Wendy years ago. It's really hard to know exactly when I met her, but we definatly met through church. We've both spent a fair amount of time watching our churchs mens slow pitch softball team. Over the years I was strangley fasinated by Wendy, but never quite knew why. I still really dont know why was so facinated by her at first. As I spent more and more time working in the church nursery, the more I realized just how neat Wendy was and still is. To put it bluntley...Wendy's married and has three kids, and I babysitt those three kids on ocasion. How weird. I'm in love with a lady that I babysitt for. How much weirder can it get? I guess I'll put up with being in love with someone I just can't have. I've kind of known over the years that this would happen eventually, and I'd have to deal with something like this. At least I can hope that someday I'll find someone who I fall in love with that isn't married, and they will fall in love with me. It's like what happened on Grey's Anatomy during the season premier this past thursay.

I'm off to check on the kids (the same three mentioned above). I bet their still fasinated by the episode of the cartoon spider man their currently watching! Adios!

Free flow of ideas

This post will be dedicated to a free flow of ideas. As soon as a new paragraph I will be writing about whatever comes to mind. I have no idea what will come out...most of all I very well might come up with some ideas for my screenplay as I free write. This has proven very usefull with my screenplay on several occasions. Here I go!

I both hate and love interviews. I had one today. I hate interviews-especially preparing for them. I love them because it makes me think on my feet (which I absolutly love doing!).
Here goes a new form of free writing that I think will be much eaisier right now.

There you stand,
next to me,
here in this rehersal,
i love you so much,
yet I know we won't ever be together that way,
'cause you're married,
and I'm single,
but we can still be friends,
which has given me so much comfort.

I love you
as a sister,
as a friend,
as a lover,
I'll always love you that way

You're beside me
during every rehersal,
which gives me so much comfort,
and we are close friends,
we share a bond
that not everyone shares,
we share the bond of friendship
the bond of sisters in Christ

I still love you
as a sister
as a friend
as a lover
and I will always love you this way.

There are days
that all I can think of
is you
how much I love you
how much we share
in common
from our conversations

I still love you
I will always love you
but we will never marry
but I dont care anymore
'cause your there for me
and Im there for you
even now
when we are no where near
each other

Yep. That's it for today. I thought I would just let my fingers go at it. And that is what came out of them.